Vitamin C

2007-01-30T02:50:00.000-08:00

i'm not posing. i don't know what am i doing in both pics. WORSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I DOING HERE AT 0239 I CANT SLEEP WHYYYYYYYYY.
that is our First Supper. we had funnnn.

ANYWAY. THIS SITE IS CLOSED.C L O S E D. no more updates. goodbye my heaven.

2007-01-29T18:02:00.000-08:00

maybe Jake might run along sometimes, to play with me.

hope Singapore wins on wednesday! though my presence will not be felt literally at Kallang. GO GO GO !!! (my bro says Thai team is strong)

eh someone! anybody. goes with me to kino or hooked clothings look at lomos k? I WANTO BUYYYYY.

semester is ending. im so f happy. i hear children at nearby pri school singing marjurah singapura. this is the time of the day when i feel extra sleepy. NOO. STUDY!

mood : strangely happy. happily pouring through my notes for tmr test. 1 chpt done only.

2007-01-18T00:28:00.000-08:00

happy elated madness laughter raptures! ecstatic dancing delight euphoric

Its even better than being in love.
although being in love seems a more long term investment
i've learnt the hard way.
BYE !

listening to : The Afters - Beautiful Love

Corinne Bailey Rae - Like A Star - NEW Video

2007-01-16T04:23:00.001-08:00

i love it. hope it brings you to sleep

2007-01-07T00:55:00.000-08:00

listening : JOJO - too little too late. maybe you shld hear it too g. then you'll know why things happen the way they did.

today no matter where i go, Byran always appear right there. smiling. freaks me out. been a year since i worked there. he didn't change one bit. the place didn't change at all. just that people come and go. shops closed and new shops pop out. and LARGE is still a store-room. i love the sundays, tucked away at 1 corner, when i propped my legs on the chair and read my book. (and this bryan will walk in and out, sibei fan) waiting for 8pm to come - okgo home! okie there's also the down side like memorising the prices of EVERYTHING inside the shop and danny will give me e DUH look when i am wrong. attending to fucked up customers is also nv a breeze cos im such a greenhorn with all e labels!!! danny said : ask him to fuck spider lah. bt being at LARGE is quite an exposure! fuck i really suspect byran's e knn who pocketed the $50 and I HAD TO PUT IT BACK. out from my pay. you mirthless no backbone. got soo much to gossip abt you when i just started out there. quite a guy. i thought charles is cute back then! seriously thoes boys, shld get a decent job rather than selling sneakers and bootlicking anthony. botak used to say, other than me, there's not much of any good ones out here. time flies.

just feeling nostalgic. of far east plaza - the money sucking den

2007-01-05T23:28:00.000-08:00

just now i thought my mind will just burst and all the tissues, vessels and blood splurting out. this is what you will get if you took 2 panadol tablets and cough syrup together. felt like i was on drugs and my head is spinning so so fast, head splitting, 160km/hr. so so miserable okie. TOKYO DRIFT SIA. i was sick again before i barely recovered in just 5 days. FUCK.
seriously my immune level is dripping faster than the stock-market. HELP HELP i just need to snuggle up against you to feel better.

tmr is high time to finish up my proj. with my undying perservance, FIGHT ! KO.

2007-01-03T10:08:00.000-08:00

POT LUCK MEMBERS we are as infamous as his 2 wet spots
Ultimate Geek MAMA

My 2 Runners Up (there's only 3 contestants cos the rest charbo)

Post Christmas Eat In at Yew Tee

well.. too many pics to share but its just too gross and ugly.. i know.

its POt LUCK themed NERD. we had charade. topics like anus, cher, sardines, mother nature, drag queen, bahama man and whatever fuck we can think of to outwit the other team. hehehe hahaha hohoho

I WANT ANOTHER THEME NEXT TIME.

2007-01-03T09:24:00.000-08:00

show hands on Christmas Eve! i think we were at asylum and anw, we behaved like thoes.

don't you think we have a reason to stay on?

THE END

2007-01-03T01:09:00.000-08:00

TIME CHECK 2007!!!

it's a bad bad one this nyd. i practically slept through the whole celebration. i guess my new day only start on 2 Jan. thats if my fever and cold leave me for good. it's like living at the North and South poles at the same time.

i'm speechless .

OH YEA ! accordingly to my first paragraph, i said i spend my nye at home. i thought i will miss all the annual fireworks and masses rushing for the exits once they're over. WELLLL. JURONG WEST held its first ever fireworks and it lasted for a full 5 minutes! and i get to watch them at e comfort of my parent's room peacefully. i caught the last ones sent up to the skies and they're like stars - magnified 1000 times. hehe i was satisfied. then i fell ill. lame shit.

yea asraf welcome hm. your sms jerked me out of sleep. im so inefficient. 2006 presents are still in my room! i will find time to give them out. heehaa! (does it sound like the cowboy?)

not forgetting . YAYS IM FINALLY DONE WITH THE REDEMPTION SHIT. now i can have all my weekends to myself. haaaaliluya.

my cousin sprained her back while taking care of elkan. and she's all alone in China now! no mummy to take care of her. mummy's the best.

record breaking 30 hours of sleep. no claudia you dun wish to sleep this well and wake up feeling so so hungry and weak like anything, muscles aching and stomach in a twist! my brain is still stuck in the day before and it feeels so heavy with air. machiam im in a daze and i stand like a jelly. the best part is my mum refuse to let me bathe. kudos my ass!
listening to : evermore - it's too late

2006-12-25T00:18:00.000-08:00

i love my friends. love how i rush home for dinner to see my mum's smile and the food she prepares. love how last minute we are in doing things. laugh at the nerd theme 'party' - i'm the ULTIMATE WINNER. love koping bears from my company. fucking pissed off at my project-mates. i love money. i also love to spend money. charades are fun & mad. I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH BADLY. funny how things revolved around in a day ; as in we're always late by a sec. I WANT THE PICS I WANT THE PICS !! finally 1 more weekend and thats it. 2007 here i come!

aida: i have a story to tell too..

drea: finally i will not be meeting you for at least 1 day.

; humpty dumpty, ouch-ouch

2006-12-21T23:45:00.000-08:00

Found the new excuse for LATECOMERS!

Do you know that 15 minutes of brisk walking can do wonders for your memory? If you're late, you need to speed up your walking to get into the office or wahtever - that short burst of physical activity will help to improve your ability of physical activity and retain info.
SO HERE'S THE GOOD NEWS !

Feel Free To Hit The Snooze Button now.

2006-12-17T09:43:00.000-08:00

It's nice to hear our parents talk after bed-time.
They behave like BIG children.
They thought we couldn't hear them, but isn't this what children always do?
THEY THOUGHT.

2006-12-17T08:27:00.000-08:00

ITS OUT ! ITS OUT ! THE malksaleh AFFAIR IS OUT!

my papa is getting old. and when he falls ill, he gets so weak. i am scared.

i hate working on weekends. all the lovebirds strolling past. i do not like. reallreally.

today i met 2 silly hip-hoppers. the yoyos. 20++++ still dress up in that way. like the people who acted in STEP UP. it's my first time communicating with people on the train. it is so hard but i try my best not to look their way. IT IS SO STUPID AND I DUN WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM WHEN THERE IS THIS KNN BLANGA WHO KEEPS LEANING ONTO ME AND PRETEND TO BE ASLEEP LAH! when i raised my hand he woke up miraculously and apologised. seriously, this kind of people never ceased to exist. not exactly pests as they do actually contribute by taking up the jobs we never deem as decent. BUT. BASTARDS.

listening to : (The OC remix) The Raveonettes - the christmas song

2006-12-14T00:01:00.000-08:00

i have a surprise for everybody i swear. but who's gonna gimme one? waiting, still waiting

not everyone is dreaming of a white christmas. what's yours? aiya. just get me that plastic card lah.

felt like spending it with my family this year.. don't worry I will not be the pangseh queen again lah! think of smth. anw i really am going to be labelled NO LIFE. work mon to sun. siao si bo.
10 more days to christmas! hehehe hehehe hehehe :):):)

i will just blabber anything that comes to my mind now. can i have a fairygodmother. i realised the agony of waiting for something, report or wadever. you never know what ure going to get ; positive or negative. i felt like watching a christmas movie, holiday anybody? i want my presents! my spree item is here like finally. my clock is forever 2:27 on the wall. are we going aida's house party? my pay never come. means claudia also no $. hmm xl might be working at some ice-cream shop, she say got cute-decent guy. i need retail therapy so badly. ZY ! HE WENT BALI WITH HIS MATES FOR 7 DAYS - GAY SHIT I TELL YOU hahaha. tracy ... lets hope he hurry hurry revert back to the old sweet&patient thing :( i just recieved news that there's make-up classes tmr 3pm?!?! i went jogging with my mummy today 15 mins later we are back home. sz can we tan on monday instead -can't wait! 2007 is so uncertain - wonder where to go after graduation. hibernation? SANTA! let me have my wishes come true ; if not at least 1. just one! when i close my eyes and wish my wish, don't disappoint me when it strikes 12.
MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2006-12-11T19:20:00.000-08:00

i love velvet, coudroy, bows, anything smooth&soft, shimmering to my eyes

i love BABYDOLLS ; hate tube tops. they say i need more papaya. knn.
i am so happy cos my 2 weeks break is in 2 days time.
didn't know sacrificing weekends is gonna be so hard.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRACY :)

miller

2006-12-06T07:07:00.001-08:00

miller
Originally uploaded by ohshucks.

kope this from a blog i visits.
yes thank you ; you're welcome
it's my pleasure

2006-12-05T07:15:00.000-08:00

ive been studying.. and snacking..and tv-ing..and managing my LJ business. trying to squeeze some jogging in between. hahaha but to no avail YET. all these while been spending much time with the MIA-ed. hehehe feels so good to have them back. why them (plural)? because drea & gay r back.
okie right now i just wanto be a jackass and laugh at my friend. guess who is e victim.

" she's always been a time bomb or... too stressful.. always having problems her whole life lah.. like the slipper's straps broke; wallet lost; blah. still can ask you whether got flowers on the new pair! HAHAHAHA. whenever she is stress.. her mood.. then we all have to bear with it. fucking funny lah! " i forgot 80% of the conversation. sorry if its not funny but to me at tt time. IT IS.

THE LITTLE OXFORD DICTIONARY has been a resident at my desk for quite some time.
read it up quite occassionally. so i chanced upon this : ROM >>>> read. only memory
ROM doesn't necessarily mean road to merry-making. hehehe random.

i only realised i'll be watching ple celebrating Christmas Eve's and New Year's Eve ystd. they will be happy and i can only be in their background! mad mad mad .

2006-12-02T00:32:00.000-08:00

;(

2006-11-30T23:37:00.000-08:00

cancelled
postponed
cancelled
skype-ing
okays lets go. finally

bloddy hell. he confiscated my water-bottle.

omg. this tastes like medicine shit.
com'on carrine, lets drink this. its more of a 7-up. safer. haa

100,000 people in 50x50 square meters

can my friend dance with you?
i don't feel like dancing ..
lookalike: its okay

where's aida? did she call? sms?
kind of boring..

px's guy is a wall !!!
laugh laugh laugh

minah VS ah beng

px's guy keeps coming back
px keeps running back to us! laugh laugh laugh

the songs.. are just so sad and slow. but it got better, only abit towards the end.

cheap cheap $10 only! >> home sweet home
claudia : so did you girls enjoy yourselves today? it was eventful. not really fun.

2006-11-28T22:50:00.000-08:00

knn. we bought the same things again. im so happy to see you today. oi. next time have the decency to tell me u meeting a candidate can. smile smile :)

birthday boys

2006-11-25T23:45:00.000-08:00

birthday boys
Originally uploaded by ohshucks.

birthday boys May 2006. lost yellow top 2006. i shall remember these 2 days forever. knn. hahaha asraf. lets have a best photo of the year.

2006-11-23T22:34:00.000-08:00

I found back something I thought I've lost forever. It is that precious to me.

happy birthday mummy. sorry we forgot =(

MNG

2006-11-20T22:20:00.001-08:00

MNG
Originally uploaded by ohshucks.

fuck shit. lame shit. blogger beta just washed out my post. TWICE.

so here it goes again. its getting shorter & shorter. haha

first up my wallet...
sick of black & white so did smth to it. my mum says it looks even uglier but heck her. now its diff from tracy, her sis and claudia.

i am so behind lesson time. due to excessive gossiping, looking here and there, gracing class half-hour late, staring & pretending to be intellectual, nodding my head whenever i think i ought to, copying notes and whatever, i need to buck up.

MISS SEO . MISS SEO CAN U WALK FASTER? I NEED TO CATCH MY BUS. due to the monsoon season, i am afraid of my safety. so i took extra caution. never to expect my lecturer breathing down my neck!

saturday saturday.

i went out with asraf, zy. ..blah blah.. Vivocity is.. blah blah.. Orchard is disgusting & tiring..blah..almost like Valentine's where old folks stay home and kids thrown into streets..

Now theres A new form of greeting friends.. they grab your hands out of nowhere . then they thrust forward an ice-cream cone and HI CARRINEEE!

i got my shoes, its not exactly shoes, don't know if its heels, i don't know! BUT I LOVE IT THANK YOU MUMMY.

althogether, zy n asraf only behaved when my mum is still with us at town. knn. knn.
instead of the 7 jvs, theres only me, asraf and zy on sat. wad happen again!??! i am getting sick of being the only girl & play-toy for the guys. knn again. pls come and join me

meanwhile, asraf feeling damn rich, he begged us to catch a movie, then he bribed us by paying half for the ticket each =) a kind couple gave ME a popcorn voucher so that WE could munch blissfully while waiting impatiently for the movie STEP UP . why cant the clubs in SG play the songs alike in the movie? i promise i will be back to you baby Zouk. hehehe

so we trudged back home. asraf's magnificiant and very nicely done high pitched singing attracted 5 policemen. and we lapsed into hibernation on NR5.

now rest shall i. looking forward to thursday, friday, saturday, sunday and of cos next wednesday. with my knn, lim&lin.

goodnight ; goodnight

????

2006-11-15T23:53:00.000-08:00

????
Originally uploaded by ohshucks.

see how tung holds thomas's waist. so naturally and matter of factly : YES WE ARE IN LOVE PEOPLE

colorful screen

2006-11-15T23:40:00.000-08:00

okay i know see shit but its been years since the 3 of us are seen together. so fuck the faces and look at the big picture ! huien , wenli , me

falling down

2006-11-15T23:39:00.000-08:00

falling down
Originally uploaded by ohshucks.

i wanted to kick him but he pulled a fast one on me! i almost kissed the floor! look at tung. he just stand down there like he didn't care about the world! haha candice's bdae. my cookies on the way on the way ! strawberry short cake nice right.. :) i love my friend.

she & me

2006-11-15T23:32:00.000-08:00

06-11-15_14-10
Originally uploaded by ohshucks.

rest of the photos sucks; they are too extreme! class photo is the best but its kinda small and squashy. ! we are sharing a slice of ssc = strawberry short cake. thomas bought it in grave danger so we must finish it upp!

my hair is very very messy but i couldn't stop trembling from laughing shock cos this shot took too long ! poly life coming to a fullstop soon.
miss me will ya?

2006-11-14T23:44:00.000-08:00

400pm
sulpho hajima shigani jinagamyon
urin soro morunun sairo
Don't be sad. As time passes
We'll become strangers...

didn't i tell you, urin soro morunun sairo

1141pm
its true. it happened. asraf, i lost the fucking bet. im a loser knn . on 2nd thoughts, i did not!

tomorrow hor. I PROMISE TO BE 615 PROMPTLY @ THE WISA BUS STOP K WENLI !

if ure reading, i don't hate you or anything. too much pride to handle. cant help but add in. why am i always the last one to know about anything? i got so mad whenever i thought of this. in the end i forgive you, but it just ends here. maybe someday when we are both more mature, we will be friends again. by that time, hurt will have become only memories. we won't be seeing each other again. if it happens, so be it. i don't know what else to say. thanks for the ride home g. good luck . know you cant wait to get the enlistment letter. haha and, js can go be a story-teller. ! dun ever try drugs hor! that's all.

2006-11-14T23:09:00.000-08:00

hello i give up on the animation.

totally un-talented.

cant wait for 22 Nov ;

its Liberation Day hahaha

2006-11-12T00:58:00.000-08:00

this is the woman i will love til my death-bed. no matter how many thousand times i have @#$ her, i know she still loves me dearly. i hope she'll let me go Thailand on my own! she say smth like you can go if you have enough money.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! super big smile leh mummy!

2006-11-12T00:51:00.000-08:00

I realise.. sunday is a baking day. also a good day for swimming! but its definately NOT a MAID'S DAY k. i am a maid today for huien. i am pissed k! but i still went ahead to buy fish soup, prata & bubble tea for us. vivocity turns out to be dinner camp-in @ blk 200. no more of this 'accident' fullstop.
i love ribena . alot. when i used to drink it at someone's house, i found it so sweet and refreshing. i always get extra juice and sometimes i fuss a little when he drinks it from my glass. HEY THATS MINE !!

cookies with walnut & choc

2006-11-11T10:05:00.000-08:00

song by travis : flowers in the window

well, flowers in MY window now. i love this time of the year. flowers blooming everywhere! i seem to wake up in a cottage-like place.., somewhere in New Zealand. just minus the HDBs. and i don't understand why i keep smelling my perfume in my room. am i imagining it or what?
YES I SMELLED IT AGAIN ! the waft dancing in the cold , stale air.

lazy weekend. have no intention of going out people. goodnight

knn i'm so bored

2006-11-10T22:52:00.000-08:00

watched Goong again with my mother today. fucking addictive esp with today's cold weather. i am retarded. then i saw aida's youngest sis for the first time. primary one. omg she is damn skinny & sweet to the max. yea. i hope she never grows up too. she be the tiny fairy in Peter Pan?

i swear im gonna do my hmwrk tomorrow morning and i swear im not gonna sleep in til 12pm and skip my breakfast again. fucking malnutriton-lised from my first meal for days.

i am damn damn bored to tears and my fingers smell of roses & apples. i painted aida's nails a freaking red on a seat along Orchard Road and guess what. Guess lah! we got a gift from heaven. hot from the oven! dropped directly onto her ZARA bag. it took us a while to understand the situation. omg. we flee like mad women. and then we had to miss the last train home. Material Girls is so funny & bimbotic & i'll choose hillary over haylie anytime.

aida says she is proud of me. i didn't realise it til she brought it up.

danny from surrender sucks k. ! nice salesman infront of my frene. msn complete shit to me. and he wadever me. u die liao.

i miss my Oleh Oleh cake at ttc. when was e last time i had it? make up of 4 or 5 layers of crunchy cookies, choc sponge cake, cream, choc and more cream! yummy . please go there with me soon please. even if im broke.

the time now is 3.21am. and my head is feeling abit groggy alr. i need to eat food. but i hate tom yam noddles so i will settle for choc cookies. ZOUK flea mart this sunday k.

goodnight sweethearts, anyone FOR a blowjob? seriously i think it sucks and not even my husband will have this priviledge. zy , stop harbouring this thought. its gross !

2006-11-08T02:39:00.000-08:00

today is a fucking suay day. i spend my last $1.20 on a can of Green Tea. nvm about it as i went on to my last appointmnt of today : the audtion. i walked up and down bukit merah road for 30mins. sweating like a pig, armpit so sticky, hair out of place i reached that Blk 1003

hahaha Candice that Kaidi is not your Kaidi ! but he's not bad. abit of a charming sensation. and TRACYWAN GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT NEXT TIME CAN! i cant act for shit and howamigonna pretend to be molested by some goondo stranger guy or even AH PEK and i may have to be half-naked and cry and look estranged, distraught and ugly all at the same time in front of the whole shooting crew. for $200, maybe i might. hahaha i might tahan.

okays the bomb of the truth came when he told me I'll be acting like the above and not like a CALEFARE as promised by whatever T. and right on the spot, he asked me to do some acting. it was all too familiar. scenario :

i was in a lift and this pervert pushed me. i am supposed to come up with my own ending ....

1.) i laughed with my lips tight
2.) imagined that invisible asshole in that imaginary lift
3.) he pushed me.
4.) i moved ONE step to my left and stand still. ( i suck i know i am not acting)
5.) i laughed again when i want to appear panicked or angry whatever
6.) tried to give that don't you dare look but failed i was giggling into air
7.) i pressed the button and escaped
8.) i walked out HELLO I WALKED OUT CALMLY AND NORMALLY

Kaidi must be laughing in his heart knn how did this gina shit even think she can act when she keeps laughing like a retarded frog. i don't even want to imagine how the audition team will fare me when they watched my dumb demo. i saw his expression when he is filming me. seriously i feel sorry for myself but grateful that if i get roped in, this production will not be aired on the National TV. i restraint my bloody self from shouting WHAT into his face when he briefed me about the selection of actresses for the Outrage of Modesty. except to keep laughing, i didn't know how to hide my face of disbelief from him and his video recorder. alone and lost in that big room.
but i hoped i get this job. $200 for getting all emotional on screen is still acceptable. haha i know how to behave woman T. and if the whole world thinks ure a lesbian by ystd alr, you know i won't, right?????? haaaaa

and then and then !!!

coming out from the lift, i bumped into someone. ASYID ASH ! he screamed CARRINEEEEE ! i blinked in shock and stared at his colleague. i don't know why. so that horny banana is doing his IAP at the same building! he said smth like carrine you're soo beautiful today... i always have this desire to see you... your face now so smoothand nice.. why ah why carrine im so attracted to you. WHATEVER HE CAN SAY, HE DID. KNN. he never fail to taunt me anyday, even infront of his colleague. he and limminghao belongs to the same banana brand. anw, he is very loyal to his gf, he is still a virgin, he is smart & witty, irritating. i love my friend.

if given a second chance, what will i want to do? go back and start growing up again.

2006-11-06T03:02:00.000-08:00

:: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA

:: AND I LOVEE TO GO SHOPPING WITH MUMMY

=)

2006-11-03T10:35:00.000-08:00

once again the session with tracy is taunted with many many hiccups and embarrassing moments. countless haggering hours over her stuff. anyday with tracywan is not a smooth-sailing day! we're the best at FOOD. we zoom down to what we want exactly and within minutes we got them yays:)
then because of some big ass guy blocking my vision, i missed my stop and thats when knn called me. n my jacket cldn't shield me from e freezing air in the bus. so cold...

and now im so fucking pek cek over the lj thingy. i just realised i have to validate the email, post the entry the 1000th time again, wait for the mod's notification blah. why cant it be so breeze-easy like spreeing or blogging? click click paste paste chop chop done.
im not lousy k. go n try. go crazy. i must make it right. ~~if possible, i dun mind paying to get this shit done !!haha~~

project project i think i have to go back school on the days i need not. which is bloody affecting my mood. next week is gonna be a NIGHTMARE . ok gdnight.

ohyea. friday ; knn&rine right? PORTER WHEREEE RRRR YOU?!

2006-11-03T02:13:00.000-08:00

the more happy & harmonious a family seems, the fakier it gets

the more perfect a relationship is, the bitter it gets in the end

so what do i know of this life im getting in to?

seems like my brother is the stronger one!! hehehe can't imagine a life w/o eric seo. he often says that too, to me. indispensable thats the word. i will die if i didn't get to talk to him in a day. i will crowd around him, peering into whatever he is doing and start talking; all he has to do is nod his head or sometimes, shut me up. i will lie on his bed and do my stuff in his room. sometimes taking a nap!
i trust him with my life.

2006-11-01T12:04:00.000-08:00

wee wee :) i was rich ystd but poor today. not surprised carrine. $400 gone seriously IBanking is such a horrible sin.
okays i think i spend like 12 hours in youtube already. i am a d d i c t e d tracy!!
we've both got the same wallet and birken. yea what else?

just recieved an email from xiulin. hehe bet u got touched by mine! no bet EVERYBODY WHO RECEIVES them out of my 61 contacts are going ooo carrine is such a ****. okays you must really work hard k. well-prepared for ur 1st paper to give the extra boost til 17 NOV!!! love

i know ure here blockhead. go away

why don't they get it aida. why! are u better now? i didn't think i sounded like tt UOB card shit leh! it just came into my mind. dancing dancing; Young Folks by peter, bjron and john is good. i am getting so random cos im waiting for Goong to load in youtube. me n tracy wan actually stayed up til 5am discussing n watching episodes after episodes.

anw back to aida. ur first entry is just heart wrenching. i can almost hear you break down in the phone. i think we can mirror our thoughts to each other. we've tried telepathy unknowningly and succeeded everytime! no we're not lesbians. i don't know what we are. but i hate his guts.

heard e song Never Again. old song by J.Timberlake very sad.

finally a quiet dinner with Candice this thursday. ive been talking abt treating her to a nice meal since thousand years ago. so much so Marche has changed to Village. so sorry i lose your cardigan! it must be in my house, dunnoe which corner of it.

2006-10-28T18:48:00.002-07:00

hahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahaha

aida : carrinnnne! i cant stop smiling!
rine : all smiles*

2 idiots travelling from boonlay to marine parade in the wee hours when moms just got up to go market haggling. at first i wasn't sure if we could wake up. but the shopping was done & over with at 12pm!! and then we were sailing home happily with our topshop $230 odd purchase. i am still sad over the membership card thingy. i don't know why i am so cheerpy but i love shopping with knn. we always get nice things with or w/o sale. when my mum open the cap to the complimentary annasui perfume, the fragrance just filled up the whole bedroom. so sweeeett.

ok i will go rent that Amelie show. i want to cry and laugh at the same time. send me e songs k aida. that malay one too. claudia lim i got a gift for you.

tiny ribbons

2006-10-21T01:28:00.000-07:00

tiny ribbons
Originally uploaded by ohshucks.

okays i've decided to re-reside in my bit of heaven here. hehe do not laugh k!

YELLOW CACTUS PLEASE DON'T DIE ON ME? I PROMISE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU...

I went IKEA and for the first time, a guy is doing the shopping, not me! im just giving my worth of opinion. yays we got aida something to wear on ALL HER FINGERS:) cannot believe it. total amounted to $87 ++/ saw so many Malays doing last minute shopping they looked so damn serious. I saw many many couples racking their brains on the color scheme, desing, measurement, and wahtever shit my parents will do when we decide to move. then i got so lost lor but then we had fun in the Children's IKEA. I AM NOT A KID K ASRAF. i love all the toys(i do not have questionable tastes k) and everything in that section. i swear im gonna get that sunflower lamp okays. $9 only!!! asraf i've decided to place it jus above my bed so when i look up, i will feel damn happy. hahaha

yea the $50 bet will be effective from 21 Oct 2006 Asraf. it has a lifespan of 365 days. and by the end of this, i gonna be $50 richer!! i dunbelieve that ure always right about us k.

blogging is the recording down of thoughts isn't it. so why am i always leaving things out totally or unexplained. how did things come to this? last night i dream of the same people again. except this time i was surrounded by tables full of unfamiliar faces but somehow i know all their names! he sat beside me all the while. i was silent throughout the whole dinner in the midst of all the chatterings. everything is like so wrong! erm this is all i can remember. i think i do dream sometimes. its just that i do not know i can dream. haha rubbish.

today is my first virgin club experience exactly a year ago. although my memory scale is only measured in bytes, i dunnoe why this got into my head ! then e next day i went for work at Large. i kept yawning and i forgot wad Danny told me. i only remember one thing during thoes days. he was sweeping the floor and a few seconds later, the broom broke into half. its a brand new one. so we laugh. and its a nice day.

okays a relative of mine just got discharged out of hospital. piece of advice : don't use too much strenght when urinating cos it might just cause inflammation into ur kidney and end up paying $2000 odd for resting and more resting in the ward. im not being sacarstic here.

this entry is relatively long i don't want to bore everybody else. I HOPE TO GET MY SAMSUNG BY END OF THIS YEAR SERIOUSLY so i don't have to hear !@#$% knncarrine everytime i got excited to photoshoot the lamest things. but really. look at the tiny tiny ribbons on the tree. they're like candies. tts why i dimmed our faces, we're not the focus. hahaha

2006-10-15T05:46:00.000-07:00

i heard that when your eyelids start to get heavy; maybe even weary, when they start to flutter slowly and then shut; eyelashes folding down like curtains to your eyes, its kinda like saying goodbye. except this time its what they call: letting go. the most beautiful thing in the world.

try and imagine how many times u laid on your bed, thinking of your day and just at the moment you fall asleep, that is what i mean.

for example, tonight i hug my bolster tight and i fall asleep, deep deep sleep. i wake up to my friend's sms at 5am. i hope ya okay sweetheart. i am beingining to love my knn more.
i am a light sleeper :) sorry i lied. this is my last post?

2006-10-01T12:08:00.000-07:00

closed down. not in use anymore.

2006-09-24T18:31:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a bad experience. but everything just ended there. its gonna be alrite now claudia my dear :)

i don't understand what is wrong with him but it breaks my heart to see him like that. seeing the bump on his temple, bruise on his arm, scratches on his back and the times he vomit with abit of blood traces onto the floor, i felt helpless. i only wanted to see you back home safely and nothing more. i cared about you this much i know so clearly myself by last night but when i tried my best to push you away, is it anger or is it over. it is the first time i look you into your eyes but i don't know what i am getting. don't say loser things like you lost my contact number. just don't. you're drunk and i understand. i also understand thats all bullcrap you're saying to me in your room. all of it giap. can u prove ONE that isn't? .

this is smth i should have said last night. happy birthday.

2006-09-17T17:39:00.000-07:00

okays i think blogger hates me or something. cant let me edit my previous posts.

FLEA IS AT GASHAUS ,114 MIDDLE ROAD. BUGIS. 23 SEPT 11AM - 4PM.
we accept cash only. no prepaid.

ystd went to watch Prada thank you asraf. then he told me about the crisis of being single now at the age of 19. haha so am i Runway? or Runaway?
seriously when is UOB going to pay me? i am flat broke in and out. another month to go before lesson time. 3 days of school. and all starts at the most stupid time of the day.
I REGRET PLAYTIME.
my results are out and aizhai. better quality than last sem but still can improve :)
i hate my current job so i will quit next friday cos its payroll time! haha
i can't imagine myself going dating so don't ask me why!
i love this Very Very Very much! http://fredflare.com/customer/product.php?productid=2332&cat=255
actually they have very very cute stuff. not as in hello kitty. and cheappppp!
my face! my face my face. getting better ! thank you jereme for ur utmost support !!
eh i feel like starting a business with my friends. who's interested? gimme ur proposals. NOW!
1 more year. and i'll be totally clueless to where my life will leads me. HELP.
1 more week from now. what will be happening?

2006-09-13T23:38:00.000-07:00

helllo ! i am addicted to the korean show every mon - fri 10pm channel u. fucking funny.

everytime i go out with huien, i always spend stupid money on neo-prints. i dunnoe why. ONLY WITH HER OKAYS. and they always turn out stupid. i'll show u the pics when i got them. its like dot dot. HAHAHA!

huien is flying. she has signed a two-years bond with SIA. and she promised me chocolates everytime. and she say things like next time you dun nd to go spree online. tell me and i'll get em' for you! omg. she is such a sweet neighbour. quick find a nepal-beng and get married.
results on friday. cant wait yes i canttt!
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erm i met kelvin and danny on sunday. his head ah.. still as shiny as ever lah! i hope he'd become my cousin-in-law soon when he has got what it takes. cos he loves zhen so muchhh! everyone of us bought a thing from zouk flea. at least this time there's aircon !!!
okays so i met this friend of huien's. he begins his sentences with I... I used to...You know I..My..
he is the most self centered guy i have ever talked to. and when we didn't reply him or gives him the kind of answer he thinks he deserves, he will go so how.. you have not answered me.. what do you think of my...... and gives us the very smug look. if its not huien's asking him of a favour, i walked straight out of his stupid incredibly high marked-up shop. the way he speaks really makes me wanna give many tight slaps. and seriously i think he is a gay. yea.. maybe thats why he behaves like this. but i must say he is a determined and disciplined person. slowly step by step he has achieved what he planned out in life. but so what. im not gonna give him credit cos first impression already sucks.

2006-09-08T02:39:00.001-07:00

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okays so i caught the most gory-fied show just now with tracy wan. SNAKES ON A PLANE. i dunno why i always always have bad luck in movies with her. WHY AH woman U TELL ME CAN? throughout the whole show, she is grabbing my arm my wrist, clamming on my fingers, my whole upper body (u all know how small my hands are right..) and yea, we scream together at the sight of snakes popping out everywhere. i was so excited that i forgot about the blasting aircon in the cinema. i think we were the noisiest cos i heard none others but us. is the show really no kick or are we too braveless? and yea! they bloody check my IC again. i got checked twice for NC 16 and its always with tracy and ple. WOMAN WHY AGAIN HUH!!!? dun understand why nudidty is classified NC16 and not M18. and tt indian movie attendant still say hey im younger than you! tt show. is nice but gross. hahaha. worth my $4.50 thanks lah tracy.

tmr is another good day seeing my doc is like seeing god! then hooking up claud n alvyn. i need a haircut. so yea. goodnight ple. i feel more like a human today after seeing my woman!

2006-09-08T00:38:00.000-07:00

hungry ghost festival - 2 spirits on the loose! she look so.. i dunnoe. like she has just talked to somebody special on the phone and still feeling excited and pleased over it. i mean Andrea not me. okays i got e pics. asraf n xl pls come online to get em'.

2006-09-05T11:17:00.000-07:00

taken with my lost for good SAMSUNG. was looking through Pictures when i found this. many more abstract and memorable ones. taken last year september too! when my hair was still long. when we were still closer. when i was richer. haha
i miss my classmates VERY VERY VERY MUCH. blogger sucks more nowadays. I CANT BLOODY BLOG.

2006-08-27T13:08:00.000-07:00

Its been funeral day. i held back all tears. this is the last time. then i saw her face. the once colorful and happy was replaced by a sullen liveless form. she seems smaller. enclosed. i stopped short by her coffin and big fat drops came flowing down all over. i wasn't feeling heartache. but im crying calling out ah yi ah yi in my heart.
she is not the best auntie i had but the thought of someone u know your whole life suddenly leaving you without any last words or wadsoever is ... sad.
it was a car accident on wednesday afternoon to Malacca. this is the first time i saw the coffin being wheeled into the incinerator' in Singapore. It was not an easy time for us. for her family. i heard my cousin shouting hysterically crying out to her mummy. my mum and all her sisters were crying. even my dad was fidgeting with his eyes beside me.
the Malaysia government sucks. how can they make my aunty rest on ice? nothing's been done to preserve her body but cheap ice blocks?
the thing about funeral. is that the entire family line together with the extended one will be present. but all i wanna do is to fold the paper money for her. hour after hour. then i saw the rotten man who is responsible for the plight my family is in now. here's a little incident between us. he took my phone. i want it back. he said it doesn't bear any name. doesn't mean you can take it.

please. i don't want another funeral. don't. let me down when i need you

2006-08-22T01:17:00.000-07:00

i stood myself against the fence, oh god... so many sunflowers !!!!! ok i imagine.

2006-08-22T01:11:00.000-07:00

her eye lashes are so cute. reminds me of myself. hahahaha really look like me when im young! her teeth esp. haha n e way she smile. ok OK! bt my bro looks much better than her bro !!!

2006-08-16T23:01:00.000-07:00

YUHUUUUU ! OH SHUZHU I PROVE YOU WRONG ISN'T IT?

I WENT JOGGING ALONE. i stopped ONCE only k to rest and breathe. healthy right? keep it up. good. welldone. if i can paste my face here i will show u how proud i am of myself. hohOHOHAHAHA.

then i saw this guy. he ran infront of me when i went home to change and he ran past me again from the back when i started running. the going home to change interval is like 30 mins. just how many rounds had he covered in my little neighbourhood? hope i see him tmr again. he is like my motivation lah!

my days are numbered. the layer of hair on my head is thinning. i saw many many wild strands on my table and under my chair. soon they will be stuck like a bush in my comb. but luckily i hv no habit of combing my hair. believe me ple. so even if there is such a day i will never know! hehehe

i have not touched my books yet. so ..hmm.. yea. byebye.

2006-08-14T23:16:00.000-07:00

first of all. must thank gaius and give him a big fat kiss. good that he delivered all the pictures. also damn freaking nice guy to send us all back safely home despite all the little hiccups on tuesday night. the traffic is crazy i tell u! okays good he is our photographer but most pics cant see clearly too. BUT BAD THAT HE LEFT OUT MY BELT AGAIN. twice gaius leong. i hate the word twice. but i forgive u.

btw. u and zeyuan really look GOOD TOGH. hahaha i got e pic in zy phone as evidence!

finally its the exam break. and then couple weeks break. and then e inevitable. haaa sian.

actually meant this as a sum up for malksaleh's bdae thingy. but suddenly im lost for words and too far out.

i cant wait to get a high paying job and do something fullfilling in my life!! i cant wait to grow old and think back ... (minus my pimple outbreaks k nb.) i want my parents to live comfortably and my family to be happy. get some first class honour degree shit. i cant wait to wear only designer's brands and dip in rose petal's bath tub every single day. have a holiday once every 3 months with my family. some spare cash for charity. spend as much time with my love one as and when i like. build little mud schools for the poor children. have some surprises now and then. of course not forgetting my dear friends. i am scared to lose my family. hahaha random random k. aiya i need to sleep. happybdae Singapore!

2006-08-13T11:14:00.000-07:00

random random random

2006-08-13T11:07:00.000-07:00

FORLORN

2006-08-13T10:53:00.000-07:00

look so ghastly right.. like you owe asraf something. tot we will have some privacy but.. FULL HOUSE at Mt Faber !
why is claudia smiling away? heeeeee

2006-08-13T10:43:00.000-07:00

TIAN !!!!!

2006-08-13T09:40:00.000-07:00

that night. been a while. i felt happy. the fountain make us RICH. with friendship.

2006-08-13T09:37:00.000-07:00

stuffing myself with the last bits.. claudia says cheers !!

2006-08-13T09:15:00.000-07:00

I CANT STOP LAUGHING. ohhhhhhhhhhhhh wad were u doing?

2006-08-13T09:02:00.000-07:00

This is how DISGUSTING-LY gaius leong ate his food at Kenny Rogers.
but they are DELICIOUS !!!

2006-08-13T08:51:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ASRAF MALKSELEH
sorry we cant catch fireworks but u had the MOST VIBRANT MOST EXCITING MOST SPECIAL one at ur own disposal at the comfort of ur underwear right. u said u can have it 10 mins long with zeyuan and gaius. BLOODY SHOW US!! haha

2006-08-12T16:18:00.000-07:00

2006-08-12T16:05:00.000-07:00

there you go.. the little beautiful thing u guys are watching is my first baby angmoh nephew KYLAN !! this is his First Spit. and that woman is his nurse. i wonder when will i get to see you. you with ur totally different lifestyle from ur uncles and aunties, us. love you !

2006-08-07T23:19:00.000-07:00

oh yea? ben&jerry got this room aroma spray going on?? hehe ice cream shop promoting air refreshers smelling like all the different flavours? yum. hmm.. hehehe sounds so close to heart.

what will be the first thing that come to your mind when you wake up in the morning? i just don't feel like facing this god damn world. i want to spend my day on my bed. falling in and out of sleep. sometimes i'll wake up in 5 minutes, sometimes in 30. then slowly drag my ass off and after a quick but magnified meal, go back in again. tired as hell. throat hurts like shit. too much phlegm. oh no.. how am i gonna enjoy all the delicious food. talk shout laugh swear blink loudly. how how. haha quick hurry make me feel brand new by tomorrow k!

enjoy first. then exams. then work. then SHOPPING! erm. then save???

I WANT CHOCOLATES. asraf lets go LIBERTY MARKET this time. budget period. sit down and have a bit of roche.

2006-08-04T16:34:00.000-07:00

i really hope i can get well soon enough... my birthday boy Asraf!
i did not forget despite everything k. oi stupid boy faster go get back your BIRTHDAY MOOD LEH. i only hope it don't clash with my exams next week.

PLE : next week is my last week of school. i am happy but sad. i can't grad togh with my friends. i will miss my classmates. and i know i might never get to see some people again. but it's all to a new start right?

aida aida aida. ouch ouch. i know i know. nvm we can meet up often since im super free next semester!

wenli : you can never be more prepared for anything. good old days don't last. quite right.

2006-07-29T02:56:00.000-07:00

claud n drea. feeling lalala by the riverside.

2006-07-29T00:54:00.000-07:00

i think my friends are supposed to comfort me but they are the ones ended up tearing!! dear xl.. do not feel afraid and alone k? and claudia.. haha you seem problem-less everytime i met you but i know of course, NO ONE IS THAT LUCKY.
do not forget our 10 years down the fucking long road. pit stop : clark quey. hahaha

suckychups:

i felt so bloated this past week. it is like i'm so full of shit.
would you rather have 1 friend who knows you inside out than 100 fools who only smile at you when they think you're cool.
i told mummy im gonna tour alone at 21. she LAUGH. nb!

random.

2006-07-26T00:07:00.000-07:00

i spend almost my whole day with aida my friend. AT SENTOSA !!
i fcuking love the beach and camera crazy aida. okays that said; pictures coming coming.

we chatted throughout the whole session and realise our ex boyfriends all suck big time. but we heart them alot alot still the whole time while they are suck-ing. we don't know why. do you?

my friend's bf got admitted into the hospital. why? he was bitten by a monkey. now laugh.

i really love my sunny island. =)

2006-07-21T09:51:00.000-07:00

this is a group of girls. not just ordinary. we are fun and loving and we love to share partners. when we share we care right? hehehehe *ros arifa sri mya rine fidah*

2006-07-21T09:29:00.000-07:00

PHOTO OF THE DAY MANS !!! ASH LOVERBOY.
they went to collect water sample from a romantic place and ash
jus couldn't resist wadever temptation there is... .. as u can see :)

2006-07-21T09:18:00.000-07:00

lab session is always so free and easy! hahaha

2006-07-08T15:58:00.000-07:00

Samsung E870 *fluttering*

2006-06-29T02:02:00.000-07:00

BTH CAN SOMEONE SELL ME A CAMERA PHONE SOON. IM SO JEALOUS!!!!! DAMN JEALOUS. sorry.

2006-06-28T12:37:00.000-07:00

Im so bloody glad that Kelvin has finally begin to even consider a change of JOB!! but i will be even happier if he took up some old time hobby like hitting the night school... hahaha but impossible. my dear old uncle.

okays right now.. my folks are singing to Deng LiJun's KTV. Classic. Crystal clear voice enticing me to sleep.. lalalalala~~ she's damn good lah!

ZARA SALE ZARA SALE PEOPLE!! GO GO GO

oh yea.. my little Elkan had some stiches up on his forehead.. he must be crying for mummy mummy I'm in pain.. he's so small. Heart For You My Tiny Elkan.

HOLA HOLA !! I PASSED ALL MY TEST-S.

RCDD - 74 (top must yaya abit)

WET - 72 (GOD BLESS)

ELSH - 67 (no comment)

SHWM - 56 (okay lor)

WT - 51 (NB!)

fuck my name's not included in either IHP / IAP. HOMELESS GIRL. so frightened and lost. is it too late for any amends now? maybe i need to go bootlick my lecturers. DAMN MYSELF.

of cos it must end with a happy tone now. thank you PK for your hahaha cutest purse i've ever seen in my entire life so far. i have used it already don't worry :)

and lastly, andrea just left my house. good to see her again kicking haaa.

2006-06-28T12:21:00.000-07:00

2006-06-26T23:58:00.000-07:00

my update :)

2006-06-25T23:20:00.000-07:00

according to Today's newspaper dated June 24 2006 ..

June 23 IS THE WORLD'S HAPPIEST DAY.

i dun't recall any wonderful things happening to me but i talked to some nice people like asraf and andrea on my cell :)

Jan 23 IS THE WORLD'S SADDEST DAY.

no recollection either.

i don't want anything to happen to you too.

why do they fly away when they're free to fly away? and will you allow them to fly up high, away from you?

will they fly back soon or will they choose to settle down quietly then and there?

2006-06-20T00:50:00.000-07:00

Within just 10 seconds, what kind of impression or personality will you leave on strangers, clients or even prospective admirers? hmm. i have been imposing loud or even rude behaviours and hand gestures on new found colleagues cos i have been so upset with the fark tub Sentosa managment. i don't give a hoot! but believe me im a nice good girl when it comes to nice and handsome people. HAHAHA. a good deed goes a long way

so have I done the right thing by setting up a dinner for the 3 of us? fingers-crossed. goodnight.

2006-06-18T00:55:00.000-07:00

eh i just calculated my total pay from sentosa that more and more fuck tub place. it amounted to almost $1000 in 2.5 months. and i only managed to save 50 miserbly bucks. I really felt so ashamed of myself. really really a bad bad girl. i will change for the better.

Im waiting. still waiting. for something good to happen!

i met my cousin today, shopping. i went for dinner with asraf and zeyuan today. oh ya not forgetting shuzhu and xiulin earlier on in the day. just telling you guys today is quite a bonding-full day :)

Bodyshop stuff is great. TRY THEM !

I will be meeting tracy wan and SJ on thursday. NOW YOU ALL CAN TALK DIRECTLY FACE TO FACE OKAY!

SATURDAY IS GONNA BE A BLAST OKAYS. WOOYEAH WOOYEAH

lastly Im gonna have to quit my job which i will miss so badly. and im wondering can i survive or what. later guys!

2006-06-10T03:10:00.000-07:00

Asraf : describe your room in 3 words.
carrine : empty clean comforting

Asraf : it reflects your life now. laughing..
carrine : momentary slience (thinking...barren could have been more exact)

WHATS YOURS(S) THEN?

2006-06-08T18:32:00.000-07:00

I miss you damn alot alot

*FINALLY LIBERALISED*

Nurulred says:
well thanks lah carrine u always brighten up my days..... (haha well. cos im a natural!? HAHAHA okays dun go swearing please people.)

2006-06-03T11:49:00.000-07:00

I feel like I've not done much but when I think back on it, I'm sitting on quite a pile of papers and I FELT PROUD OF MYSELF. hahaha

yea.. so thats about it. my update.
mood: SMILING SUPER WIDELY.

2006-05-30T23:28:00.000-07:00

WALAO EH !!!!!! BIG NEWS BIG NEWS.

from today's NewPaper.

wife accused husband of marital affair because she saw some sms(es) on his phone. they had a heated argument. malaysian contrator husband denied furiously and insisted that he had never betrayed their marriage. wife does not hear any of it. husband proved his innocence by CUTTING HIS PENNIS OFF WITH A KNIFE !!!!!!! (stupid no brain loser)

luckily it was resuscitated and the family is reunited once more.

aiya.. too bad i can only see the man's upper body. not even his face is disclosed! i can say this is by far the most serious nut case i have ever heard. damaging your precious isn't gonna ensure you the most pleasuring lala experience in the future. thats why people say guys think with their dicks and girls, with their hearts. i have never doubted this saying before, not now, definately not ever. HAHAHAHA

and now. back to my mugging. :(

2006-05-27T00:29:00.000-07:00

http://ruinousrevelry.livejournal.com/?skip=1

But, after so long, his reactions would not mesh into gear, They'd become a deadeningly smooth surface that struck no sparks any more. when she needed him to put an arm around her and tell her not to get excited - to calm down because he loved her very much - that was when his mouth became ashen and his eyes glazed into the general paralysis of his whole body. She needed him most at the precise moment when he needed her most, and so they retreated into their own damaged worlds to wait for the time when they again felt no need of each other, and when they could then give freely all that was no longer wanted, but which was appreciated nevertheless.

i don't understand it. no i really can't place a finger on it. i see all the letters flying around in my mind but they do not form a word or something. tell me. bring me into your world and show me. like a walk to remember.

2006-05-26T23:36:00.000-07:00

Today is a PLEASURE - in - disguise day!!! PLEASURE~~~~
I.. I... I give my first time to you girls leh... shy... alot of damage been done to my mind and brain lah!! *double domino*

Lucky for u girls.. I did not indulge in the ANTI LIM MING HAO SYNDROME. i really felt like slamming down hard on both his cheeks and then a kick ass onto his dick. he has been cursing me the whole day whenever he had the chance. and i ignored him. i enjoyed this kick man, knowing how fuck-tub he must be feeling when i did not submit to his attacks. it seems he cant stop lashing vicious remarks at me. i know this sounds stupid but i am really bent on ignoring him for as long as it takes. i do not see the need to start a conversation with an empty vessel which by the way is full of sex and sex. i am always embarassed when he talk about them loud enough to be heard 2 heads away in a tutorial full of strangers. and he does not even try whispering! i don't understand why he became someone like this shit. okay i just want to rant. I FUCKING HAD ENOUGH U FUCKERLISED KUKU. i cant wait to see what will befall unto you. evil?? don't try me . being nice doesn't get nowhere.

okay.. check out andrea's May 25th first post. exploring the depth of ___________ .

2006-05-24T19:31:00.000-07:00

LIM MING HAO IS THE WORST GUY I HAVE EVER CAME ACROSS.

- ill-mannered
- ugly
- ingrate
- pervert
- no respect for others
- typical guy
- sex-orientated
- good-for-nothing

i cannot stand him no im so ashamed to be stained in his presence. why why did such a person even existed to bring misery to people around him. i shall curse and swear. curse and swear behind him, curse and swear infront of him.

2006-05-23T14:11:00.000-07:00

why do they make school so tiring for me nowadays? taking a whole day breather on a schoolday at home is so relaxing. esp when i have the whole house to myself. done with some dusting here and there, i need to have some time for myself! time to do up my pay. time to finish up some reports. time to make some extra cash. time to sift through some stacks of papers for revision! EXAMS ARE FREAKING NEAR AND I SEEM TO BE STILL STUCK IN MY OWN LALALA~

WAKE UP WAKE UP !!!

24/7 isn't always enough. when time slips past and crept away ever so gently, i would be still tucked under my blankets. you're watching me to sleep. it seems to be taking forever. i need to break out. it was only just transient. i realised, just transitory. we had our goodbyes so many times. so hard. so far away. all the pretences. give it all away now. with our backs turned to no regrets; you do know, who won in the end.

2006-05-18T22:28:00.000-07:00

I have never laugh so hard for soo long already. I had a photo session with my dear friend Candice during our tutorial break. Everybody else is laughing either along with us or they have some private jokes among themselves. Definately 'high'. Yep we finally got to wear our couple rings !
Happy Birthday to Gaius Leong!
Happy Birthday to Zeyuan too! See you guys this Sat ! Japan orgy you all can dream. zz

And also I've learnt to draw a cockroach. got pic got pic!! too boliao. drawing lesson . haha

2006-05-18T22:21:00.000-07:00

have a nice day folks!

2006-05-18T17:54:00.001-07:00

I CANNOT FUCKING STOP LAUGHING LAH !!!

2006-05-18T17:54:00.000-07:00

* kiss from me*

2006-05-18T17:51:00.000-07:00

we're so bored. solids hazards and waste managment tutorial now.
she is the solid waste. i'm the waste manager. haha togh we make a perfect team!!!

2006-05-18T17:44:00.000-07:00

I KNOW I LOOOK GHASTLY. HAHA

2006-05-18T05:48:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA NO COMMENTS OKAY.
okay fine I LOOK STUPID but... haha nana so pretty correct?

2006-05-16T17:17:00.000-07:00

I know.. I know.. its all part and parcel of life. But it still hit me hard and i cannot stop hearing the last words he said to me a few months back. He is such a joval man.

Im so sorry about your father's mishap Shuzhu. If there's anything to do, tell me, tell me please because I want to help. Don't keep quiet like you did before.

2006-05-12T15:57:00.000-07:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
But i'm doin it
It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret
But i know if i could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken

What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seein that lovin you
Is what i was tryin to do

not seein that lovin you
that's what I was tryin to do...

2006-05-02T22:17:00.000-07:00

I'm coming back home... listening to Michael Buble 'HOME' .

I realise.. my life's been full of chances. Second chances people gave me. Since secondary school life til now a Ngee Ann student, I've been offered The One chance to do it again. I've succeeded. Hadn't it occured to me to give others the benefit of doubt too? Okay let's not digress.

If you've been offered the second try to do your last bit for yourself, believe and be passionate about it. At least feel that you've already make a connection with it . I don't know how to go about it too but you must have got my drift right. I mean I've came that way too. I know it sucks but hey the second time round will be so much more! Maybe we're dictated by surroundings and circumstances.. but please try. My words aren't worth a penny. And I know you know you deserve more.
Finish up what you need to do before running back home andrea. We will be at the finishing line don't worry. Gaius won't miss it for the world. HAHAHA
and POO. R E N T. is not airing anymore.

2006-04-29T23:02:00.000-07:00

RENT

Love is nothing but a feeling. True love is nothing more than a rented feeling. Its never about pocessing. He or she never belongs to you. When you love him, he will accept it and thus decides whether to return you the affection. But he still belongs to himself and is only allowed to be rented willingly. I don't know if I got it right but I wrote all these based on what my friend had described on the musical Rent. Its on Cathay Cineplex now.

I feel i got more to think about. But right now I reckon you guys might take some time to digest what I've written so I shall shut the hell up.

2006-04-27T16:39:00.000-07:00

I'M BACK. haha

I was in the train half an hour ago when i realised the cabin which I've entered is full of a certain kind of people. I know its damn rude to say 'kind' but they're just different. They sign to one another and behave in a younger manner than they should have been. One of them even had his shoes removed - he's walking around on the train bare footed. They looked 15 or 16? By this time teenagers should be at their most image conscious-ness but apparently...

So what has happened to them? Pin pointing to the source of the problem ----> human; meaning their mothers and fathers. Why are they born defected and handicapped in some parts of their bodies? I can't help but feel angry at us, the people. Is this part of the nature's program too? To let us feel pitiful or even scoff at them innocent ones. They do not have a choice! But they live in ignorance all their lives and I envy them. They do not bend under glares and stress or so i think. They practically live in their own blissful world with their friends and all, surfacing for air sometimes. They do not fret over emotional details but cry at any slightest wrong without feeling any after-math. There's no scars left in reminiscence. I envied them but I do not wish to be like them. Human can never be contented and they hunt. I do not want to feel no pain and live my life in a blank world. And while there's still some wild strings tugging at the back of my mind, I know time heals. Time do not go back either. Its what you decides that stays.
And after ranting abit, I realised Im going to be bloody late for my long awaited meet-up at 515 with ANDREA LIN, CLAUDIA LIM !!!!!