i'm not posing. i don't know what am i doing in both pics. WORSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I DOING HERE AT 0239 I CANT SLEEP WHYYYYYYYYY.
that is our First Supper. we had funnnn.

maybe Jake might run along sometimes, to play with me.

hope Singapore wins on wednesday! though my presence will not be felt literally at Kallang. GO GO GO !!! (my bro says Thai team is strong)

eh someone! anybody. goes with me to kino or hooked clothings look at lomos k? I WANTO BUYYYYY.

semester is ending. im so f happy. i hear children at nearby pri school singing marjurah singapura. this is the time of the day when i feel extra sleepy. NOO. STUDY!

mood : strangely happy. happily pouring through my notes for tmr test. 1 chpt done only.

happy elated madness laughter raptures! ecstatic dancing delight euphoric

listening : JOJO - too little too late. maybe you shld hear it too g. then you'll know why things happen the way they did.

today no matter where i go, Byran always appear right there. smiling. freaks me out. been a year since i worked there. he didn't change one bit. the place didn't change at all. just that people come and go. shops closed and new shops pop out. and LARGE is still a store-room. i love the sundays, tucked away at 1 corner, when i propped my legs on the chair and read my book. (and this bryan will walk in and out, sibei fan) waiting for 8pm to come - okgo home! okie there's also the down side like memorising the prices of EVERYTHING inside the shop and danny will give me e DUH look when i am wrong. attending to fucked up customers is also nv a breeze cos im such a greenhorn with all e labels!!! danny said : ask him to fuck spider lah. bt being at LARGE is quite an exposure! fuck i really suspect byran's e knn who pocketed the $50 and I HAD TO PUT IT BACK. out from my pay. you mirthless no backbone. got soo much to gossip abt you when i just started out there. quite a guy. i thought charles is cute back then! seriously thoes boys, shld get a decent job rather than selling sneakers and bootlicking anthony. botak used to say, other than me, there's not much of any good ones out here. time flies.

just feeling nostalgic. of far east plaza - the money sucking den

just now i thought my mind will just burst and all the tissues, vessels and blood splurting out. this is what you will get if you took 2 panadol tablets and cough syrup together. felt like i was on drugs and my head is spinning so so fast, head splitting, 160km/hr. so so miserable okie. TOKYO DRIFT SIA. i was sick again before i barely recovered in just 5 days. FUCK.
seriously my immune level is dripping faster than the stock-market. HELP HELP i just need to snuggle up against you to feel better.

tmr is high time to finish up my proj. with my undying perservance, FIGHT ! KO.

THE END

it's a bad bad one this nyd. i practically slept through the whole celebration. i guess my new day only start on 2 Jan. thats if my fever and cold leave me for good. it's like living at the North and South poles at the same time.

i'm speechless .

OH YEA ! accordingly to my first paragraph, i said i spend my nye at home. i thought i will miss all the annual fireworks and masses rushing for the exits once they're over. WELLLL. JURONG WEST held its first ever fireworks and it lasted for a full 5 minutes! and i get to watch them at e comfort of my parent's room peacefully. i caught the last ones sent up to the skies and they're like stars - magnified 1000 times. hehe i was satisfied. then i fell ill. lame shit.

yea asraf welcome hm. your sms jerked me out of sleep. im so inefficient. 2006 presents are still in my room! i will find time to give them out. heehaa! (does it sound like the cowboy?)

not forgetting . YAYS IM FINALLY DONE WITH THE REDEMPTION SHIT. now i can have all my weekends to myself. haaaaliluya.

my cousin sprained her back while taking care of elkan. and she's all alone in China now! no mummy to take care of her. mummy's the best.

record breaking 30 hours of sleep. no claudia you dun wish to sleep this well and wake up feeling so so hungry and weak like anything, muscles aching and stomach in a twist! my brain is still stuck in the day before and it feeels so heavy with air. machiam im in a daze and i stand like a jelly. the best part is my mum refuse to let me bathe. kudos my ass!
listening to : evermore - it's too late

Found the new excuse for LATECOMERS!

Do you know that 15 minutes of brisk walking can do wonders for your memory? If you're late, you need to speed up your walking to get into the office or wahtever - that short burst of physical activity will help to improve your ability of physical activity and retain info.
SO HERE'S THE GOOD NEWS !

Feel Free To Hit The Snooze Button now.

It's nice to hear our parents talk after bed-time.
They behave like BIG children.
They thought we couldn't hear them, but isn't this what children always do?
THEY THOUGHT.

ITS OUT ! ITS OUT ! THE malksaleh AFFAIR IS OUT!

my papa is getting old. and when he falls ill, he gets so weak. i am scared.

i hate working on weekends. all the lovebirds strolling past. i do not like. reallreally.

today i met 2 silly hip-hoppers. the yoyos. 20++++ still dress up in that way. like the people who acted in STEP UP. it's my first time communicating with people on the train. it is so hard but i try my best not to look their way. IT IS SO STUPID AND I DUN WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM WHEN THERE IS THIS KNN BLANGA WHO KEEPS LEANING ONTO ME AND PRETEND TO BE ASLEEP LAH! when i raised my hand he woke up miraculously and apologised. seriously, this kind of people never ceased to exist. not exactly pests as they do actually contribute by taking up the jobs we never deem as decent. BUT. BASTARDS.

listening to : (The OC remix) The Raveonettes - the christmas song

i have a surprise for everybody i swear. but who's gonna gimme one? waiting, still waiting

not everyone is dreaming of a white christmas. what's yours? aiya. just get me that plastic card lah.

felt like spending it with my family this year.. don't worry I will not be the pangseh queen again lah! think of smth. anw i really am going to be labelled NO LIFE. work mon to sun. siao si bo.
10 more days to christmas! hehehe hehehe hehehe :):):)

i will just blabber anything that comes to my mind now. can i have a fairygodmother. i realised the agony of waiting for something, report or wadever. you never know what ure going to get ; positive or negative. i felt like watching a christmas movie, holiday anybody? i want my presents! my spree item is here like finally. my clock is forever 2:27 on the wall. are we going aida's house party? my pay never come. means claudia also no $. hmm xl might be working at some ice-cream shop, she say got cute-decent guy. i need retail therapy so badly. ZY ! HE WENT BALI WITH HIS MATES FOR 7 DAYS - GAY SHIT I TELL YOU hahaha. tracy ... lets hope he hurry hurry revert back to the old sweet&patient thing :( i just recieved news that there's make-up classes tmr 3pm?!?! i went jogging with my mummy today 15 mins later we are back home. sz can we tan on monday instead -can't wait! 2007 is so uncertain - wonder where to go after graduation. hibernation? SANTA! let me have my wishes come true ; if not at least 1. just one! when i close my eyes and wish my wish, don't disappoint me when it strikes 12.
MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

kope this from a blog i visits.
yes thank you ; you're welcome
it's my pleasure

ive been studying.. and snacking..and tv-ing..and managing my LJ business. trying to squeeze some jogging in between. hahaha but to no avail YET. all these while been spending much time with the MIA-ed. hehehe feels so good to have them back. why them (plural)? because drea & gay r back.
okie right now i just wanto be a jackass and laugh at my friend. guess who is e victim.

" she's always been a time bomb or... too stressful.. always having problems her whole life lah.. like the slipper's straps broke; wallet lost; blah. still can ask you whether got flowers on the new pair! HAHAHAHA. whenever she is stress.. her mood.. then we all have to bear with it. fucking funny lah! " i forgot 80% of the conversation. sorry if its not funny but to me at tt time. IT IS.

THE LITTLE OXFORD DICTIONARY has been a resident at my desk for quite some time.
read it up quite occassionally. so i chanced upon this : ROM >>>> read. only memory
ROM doesn't necessarily mean road to merry-making. hehehe random.

i only realised i'll be watching ple celebrating Christmas Eve's and New Year's Eve ystd. they will be happy and i can only be in their background! mad mad mad .

cancelled
postponed
cancelled
skype-ing
okays lets go. finally

bloddy hell. he confiscated my water-bottle.

omg. this tastes like medicine shit.
com'on carrine, lets drink this. its more of a 7-up. safer. haa

100,000 people in 50x50 square meters

can my friend dance with you?
i don't feel like dancing ..
lookalike: its okay

where's aida? did she call? sms?
kind of boring..

px's guy is a wall !!!
laugh laugh laugh

minah VS ah beng

px's guy keeps coming back
px keeps running back to us! laugh laugh laugh

the songs.. are just so sad and slow. but it got better, only abit towards the end.

cheap cheap $10 only! >> home sweet home
claudia : so did you girls enjoy yourselves today? it was eventful. not really fun.

knn. we bought the same things again. im so happy to see you today. oi. next time have the decency to tell me u meeting a candidate can. smile smile :)

birthday boys May 2006. lost yellow top 2006. i shall remember these 2 days forever. knn. hahaha asraf. lets have a best photo of the year.

I found back something I thought I've lost forever. It is that precious to me.

happy birthday mummy. sorry we forgot =(

fuck shit. lame shit. blogger beta just washed out my post. TWICE.

so here it goes again. its getting shorter & shorter. haha

first up my wallet...
sick of black & white so did smth to it. my mum says it looks even uglier but heck her. now its diff from tracy, her sis and claudia.

i am so behind lesson time. due to excessive gossiping, looking here and there, gracing class half-hour late, staring & pretending to be intellectual, nodding my head whenever i think i ought to, copying notes and whatever, i need to buck up.

MISS SEO . MISS SEO CAN U WALK FASTER? I NEED TO CATCH MY BUS. due to the monsoon season, i am afraid of my safety. so i took extra caution. never to expect my lecturer breathing down my neck!

saturday saturday.

i went out with asraf, zy. ..blah blah.. Vivocity is.. blah blah.. Orchard is disgusting & tiring..blah..almost like Valentine's where old folks stay home and kids thrown into streets..

Now theres A new form of greeting friends.. they grab your hands out of nowhere . then they thrust forward an ice-cream cone and HI CARRINEEE!

i got my shoes, its not exactly shoes, don't know if its heels, i don't know! BUT I LOVE IT THANK YOU MUMMY.

althogether, zy n asraf only behaved when my mum is still with us at town. knn. knn.
instead of the 7 jvs, theres only me, asraf and zy on sat. wad happen again!??! i am getting sick of being the only girl & play-toy for the guys. knn again. pls come and join me

meanwhile, asraf feeling damn rich, he begged us to catch a movie, then he bribed us by paying half for the ticket each =) a kind couple gave ME a popcorn voucher so that WE could munch blissfully while waiting impatiently for the movie STEP UP . why cant the clubs in SG play the songs alike in the movie? i promise i will be back to you baby Zouk. hehehe

so we trudged back home. asraf's magnificiant and very nicely done high pitched singing attracted 5 policemen. and we lapsed into hibernation on NR5.

now rest shall i. looking forward to thursday, friday, saturday, sunday and of cos next wednesday. with my knn, lim&lin.

goodnight ; goodnight

see how tung holds thomas's waist. so naturally and matter of factly : YES WE ARE IN LOVE PEOPLE

okay i know see shit but its been years since the 3 of us are seen together. so fuck the faces and look at the big picture ! huien , wenli , me

i wanted to kick him but he pulled a fast one on me! i almost kissed the floor! look at tung. he just stand down there like he didn't care about the world! haha candice's bdae. my cookies on the way on the way ! strawberry short cake nice right.. :) i love my friend.

rest of the photos sucks; they are too extreme! class photo is the best but its kinda small and squashy. ! we are sharing a slice of ssc = strawberry short cake. thomas bought it in grave danger so we must finish it upp!

my hair is very very messy but i couldn't stop trembling from laughing shock cos this shot took too long ! poly life coming to a fullstop soon.
miss me will ya?

400pm
sulpho hajima shigani jinagamyon
urin soro morunun sairo
Don't be sad. As time passes
We'll become strangers...

didn't i tell you, urin soro morunun sairo

1141pm
its true. it happened. asraf, i lost the fucking bet. im a loser knn . on 2nd thoughts, i did not!

tomorrow hor. I PROMISE TO BE 615 PROMPTLY @ THE WISA BUS STOP K WENLI !

if ure reading, i don't hate you or anything. too much pride to handle. cant help but add in. why am i always the last one to know about anything? i got so mad whenever i thought of this. in the end i forgive you, but it just ends here. maybe someday when we are both more mature, we will be friends again. by that time, hurt will have become only memories. we won't be seeing each other again. if it happens, so be it. i don't know what else to say. thanks for the ride home g. good luck . know you cant wait to get the enlistment letter. haha and, js can go be a story-teller. ! dun ever try drugs hor! that's all.

this is the woman i will love til my death-bed. no matter how many thousand times i have @#$ her, i know she still loves me dearly. i hope she'll let me go Thailand on my own! she say smth like you can go if you have enough money.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! super big smile leh mummy!

I realise.. sunday is a baking day. also a good day for swimming! but its definately NOT a MAID'S DAY k. i am a maid today for huien. i am pissed k! but i still went ahead to buy fish soup, prata & bubble tea for us. vivocity turns out to be dinner camp-in @ blk 200. no more of this 'accident' fullstop.
i love ribena . alot. when i used to drink it at someone's house, i found it so sweet and refreshing. i always get extra juice and sometimes i fuss a little when he drinks it from my glass. HEY THATS MINE !!

cookies with walnut & choc

watched Goong again with my mother today. fucking addictive esp with today's cold weather. i am retarded. then i saw aida's youngest sis for the first time. primary one. omg she is damn skinny & sweet to the max. yea. i hope she never grows up too. she be the tiny fairy in Peter Pan?

i swear im gonna do my hmwrk tomorrow morning and i swear im not gonna sleep in til 12pm and skip my breakfast again. fucking malnutriton-lised from my first meal for days.

i am damn damn bored to tears and my fingers smell of roses & apples. i painted aida's nails a freaking red on a seat along Orchard Road and guess what. Guess lah! we got a gift from heaven. hot from the oven! dropped directly onto her ZARA bag. it took us a while to understand the situation. omg. we flee like mad women. and then we had to miss the last train home. Material Girls is so funny & bimbotic & i'll choose hillary over haylie anytime.

aida says she is proud of me. i didn't realise it til she brought it up.

danny from surrender sucks k. ! nice salesman infront of my frene. msn complete shit to me. and he wadever me. u die liao.

i miss my Oleh Oleh cake at ttc. when was e last time i had it? make up of 4 or 5 layers of crunchy cookies, choc sponge cake, cream, choc and more cream! yummy . please go there with me soon please. even if im broke.

the time now is 3.21am. and my head is feeling abit groggy alr. i need to eat food. but i hate tom yam noddles so i will settle for choc cookies. ZOUK flea mart this sunday k.

goodnight sweethearts, anyone FOR a blowjob? seriously i think it sucks and not even my husband will have this priviledge. zy , stop harbouring this thought. its gross !

today is a fucking suay day. i spend my last $1.20 on a can of Green Tea. nvm about it as i went on to my last appointmnt of today : the audtion. i walked up and down bukit merah road for 30mins. sweating like a pig, armpit so sticky, hair out of place i reached that Blk 1003

hahaha Candice that Kaidi is not your Kaidi ! but he's not bad. abit of a charming sensation. and TRACYWAN GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT NEXT TIME CAN! i cant act for shit and howamigonna pretend to be molested by some goondo stranger guy or even AH PEK and i may have to be half-naked and cry and look estranged, distraught and ugly all at the same time in front of the whole shooting crew. for $200, maybe i might. hahaha i might tahan.

okays the bomb of the truth came when he told me I'll be acting like the above and not like a CALEFARE as promised by whatever T. and right on the spot, he asked me to do some acting. it was all too familiar. scenario :

i was in a lift and this pervert pushed me. i am supposed to come up with my own ending ....

1.) i laughed with my lips tight
2.) imagined that invisible asshole in that imaginary lift
3.) he pushed me.
4.) i moved ONE step to my left and stand still. ( i suck i know i am not acting)
5.) i laughed again when i want to appear panicked or angry whatever
6.) tried to give that don't you dare look but failed i was giggling into air
7.) i pressed the button and escaped
8.) i walked out HELLO I WALKED OUT CALMLY AND NORMALLY

Kaidi must be laughing in his heart knn how did this gina shit even think she can act when she keeps laughing like a retarded frog. i don't even want to imagine how the audition team will fare me when they watched my dumb demo. i saw his expression when he is filming me. seriously i feel sorry for myself but grateful that if i get roped in, this production will not be aired on the National TV. i restraint my bloody self from shouting WHAT into his face when he briefed me about the selection of actresses for the Outrage of Modesty. except to keep laughing, i didn't know how to hide my face of disbelief from him and his video recorder. alone and lost in that big room.
but i hoped i get this job. $200 for getting all emotional on screen is still acceptable. haha i know how to behave woman T. and if the whole world thinks ure a lesbian by ystd alr, you know i won't, right?????? haaaaa

and then and then !!!

coming out from the lift, i bumped into someone. ASYID ASH ! he screamed CARRINEEEEE ! i blinked in shock and stared at his colleague. i don't know why. so that horny banana is doing his IAP at the same building! he said smth like carrine you're soo beautiful today... i always have this desire to see you... your face now so smoothand nice.. why ah why carrine im so attracted to you. WHATEVER HE CAN SAY, HE DID. KNN. he never fail to taunt me anyday, even infront of his colleague. he and limminghao belongs to the same banana brand. anw, he is very loyal to his gf, he is still a virgin, he is smart & witty, irritating. i love my friend.

if given a second chance, what will i want to do? go back and start growing up again.

:: HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA

:: AND I LOVEE TO GO SHOPPING WITH MUMMY

=)

once again the session with tracy is taunted with many many hiccups and embarrassing moments. countless haggering hours over her stuff. anyday with tracywan is not a smooth-sailing day! we're the best at FOOD. we zoom down to what we want exactly and within minutes we got them yays:)
then because of some big ass guy blocking my vision, i missed my stop and thats when knn called me. n my jacket cldn't shield me from e freezing air in the bus. so cold...

and now im so fucking pek cek over the lj thingy. i just realised i have to validate the email, post the entry the 1000th time again, wait for the mod's notification blah. why cant it be so breeze-easy like spreeing or blogging? click click paste paste chop chop done.
im not lousy k. go n try. go crazy. i must make it right. if possible, i dun mind paying to get this shit done !!haha

project project i think i have to go back school on the days i need not. which is bloody affecting my mood. next week is gonna be a NIGHTMARE . ok gdnight.

ohyea. friday ; knn&rine right? PORTER WHEREEE RRRR YOU?!

the more happy & harmonious a family seems, the fakier it gets

the more perfect a relationship is, the bitter it gets in the end

so what do i know of this life im getting in to?

seems like my brother is the stronger one!! hehehe can't imagine a life w/o eric seo. he often says that too, to me. indispensable thats the word. i will die if i didn't get to talk to him in a day. i will crowd around him, peering into whatever he is doing and start talking; all he has to do is nod his head or sometimes, shut me up. i will lie on his bed and do my stuff in his room. sometimes taking a nap!
i trust him with my life.

wee wee :) i was rich ystd but poor today. not surprised carrine. $400 gone seriously IBanking is such a horrible sin.
okays i think i spend like 12 hours in youtube already. i am a d d i c t e d tracy!!
we've both got the same wallet and birken. yea what else?

just recieved an email from xiulin. hehe bet u got touched by mine! no bet EVERYBODY WHO RECEIVES them out of my 61 contacts are going ooo carrine is such a ****. okays you must really work hard k. well-prepared for ur 1st paper to give the extra boost til 17 NOV!!! love

i know ure here blockhead. go away

why don't they get it aida. why! are u better now? i didn't think i sounded like tt UOB card shit leh! it just came into my mind. dancing dancing; Young Folks by peter, bjron and john is good. i am getting so random cos im waiting for Goong to load in youtube. me n tracy wan actually stayed up til 5am discussing n watching episodes after episodes.

anw back to aida. ur first entry is just heart wrenching. i can almost hear you break down in the phone. i think we can mirror our thoughts to each other. we've tried telepathy unknowningly and succeeded everytime! no we're not lesbians. i don't know what we are. but i hate his guts.

heard e song Never Again. old song by J.Timberlake very sad.

finally a quiet dinner with Candice this thursday. ive been talking abt treating her to a nice meal since thousand years ago. so much so Marche has changed to Village. so sorry i lose your cardigan! it must be in my house, dunnoe which corner of it.

hahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahaha

aida : carrinnnne! i cant stop smiling!
rine : all smiles*


2 idiots travelling from boonlay to marine parade in the wee hours when moms just got up to go market haggling. at first i wasn't sure if we could wake up. but the shopping was done & over with at 12pm!! and then we were sailing home happily with our topshop $230 odd purchase. i am still sad over the membership card thingy. i don't know why i am so cheerpy but i love shopping with knn. we always get nice things with or w/o sale. when my mum open the cap to the complimentary annasui perfume, the fragrance just filled up the whole bedroom. so sweeeett.


ok i will go rent that Amelie show. i want to cry and laugh at the same time. send me e songs k aida. that malay one too. claudia lim i got a gift for you.

okays i've decided to re-reside in my bit of heaven here. hehe do not laugh k!

YELLOW CACTUS PLEASE DON'T DIE ON ME? I PROMISE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU...

I went IKEA and for the first time, a guy is doing the shopping, not me! im just giving my worth of opinion. yays we got aida something to wear on ALL HER FINGERS:) cannot believe it. total amounted to $87 ++/ saw so many Malays doing last minute shopping they looked so damn serious. I saw many many couples racking their brains on the color scheme, desing, measurement, and wahtever shit my parents will do when we decide to move. then i got so lost lor but then we had fun in the Children's IKEA. I AM NOT A KID K ASRAF. i love all the toys(i do not have questionable tastes k) and everything in that section. i swear im gonna get that sunflower lamp okays. $9 only!!! asraf i've decided to place it jus above my bed so when i look up, i will feel damn happy. hahaha

yea the $50 bet will be effective from 21 Oct 2006 Asraf. it has a lifespan of 365 days. and by the end of this, i gonna be $50 richer!! i dunbelieve that ure always right about us k.

blogging is the recording down of thoughts isn't it. so why am i always leaving things out totally or unexplained. how did things come to this? last night i dream of the same people again. except this time i was surrounded by tables full of unfamiliar faces but somehow i know all their names! he sat beside me all the while. i was silent throughout the whole dinner in the midst of all the chatterings. everything is like so wrong! erm this is all i can remember. i think i do dream sometimes. its just that i do not know i can dream. haha rubbish.

today is my first virgin club experience exactly a year ago. although my memory scale is only measured in bytes, i dunnoe why this got into my head ! then e next day i went for work at Large. i kept yawning and i forgot wad Danny told me. i only remember one thing during thoes days. he was sweeping the floor and a few seconds later, the broom broke into half. its a brand new one. so we laugh. and its a nice day.

okays a relative of mine just got discharged out of hospital. piece of advice : don't use too much strenght when urinating cos it might just cause inflammation into ur kidney and end up paying $2000 odd for resting and more resting in the ward. im not being sacarstic here.

this entry is relatively long i don't want to bore everybody else. I HOPE TO GET MY SAMSUNG BY END OF THIS YEAR SERIOUSLY so i don't have to hear !@#$% knncarrine everytime i got excited to photoshoot the lamest things. but really. look at the tiny tiny ribbons on the tree. they're like candies. tts why i dimmed our faces, we're not the focus. hahaha